I am, crazy

Okay so today I'm going to do the worst imaginable thing.
I can't disclose too much information.
All I can say is goodbye sane Lily...
I am about to start a on a spiral... Whether it be downward or upward that I am unaware of but I am finished. Kapeesh!
My brain is fried.
My heart is in shreds
I have given up on the human race
I seek nothing but solace
I am so consumed in anger my being won't allow me to breath the normal rhythm it usually does...


I dont even have the tears to cry
And don't even think I should bother
I'm going to remember this for life
And fault myself also
I despise the choice I made
And the psychological tact with which it was implanted into my brain

But all I can do is look on to the future
Which I know now consists of pure and sheer distaste at what the world thinks is acceptable
This is not acceptable
Immoral
Unjust
And absolute cruelty
To myself and the other involved

I just hope I am forgiven
Because this act is forbidden in my heart and in the eyes of many others
But who am I to judge

It's karma ...