VAT Increase

I am ..
UNAMUSED.. by the rise
DISPLEASED.. by its arrival
PEEVED.. by its effect
RUINED.. because despite the increase I am not going to be paid a higher wage.

I cackled when the lady I normally by my daily dose of juice from
(a bottle of water and a carton of tropical fruit) quoted the price.
I repeated it, and she nodded.
I repeated what she said again... and yeah you guessed it she nodded.

I flung my head back and let out a howl of laughter which sounded somewhat like a wail.

I paid anyways, because I am at times a little too proud for my own good.
And besides.. I dont function well first thing in the morning minus the stuff.

I had previously considered the increase rather minor, but now am infuriated to find that even the 'little things' are now more expensive.

This coalition is good for nothing.

DAMN you government and EFF all You MOFO's who voted conservative and lib dem.

Broken promises, half-hearted or amended proposals and an end to all the things that benefitted the working-class.

PISSED MUCH

Lily x

Oh and BTW, Happy New Year

See Saw

Some days I'll be up and others down...
Here marketh the beginning of a new chapter in my life.

I label thee 'After Karma'

I am, crazy

Okay so today I'm going to do the worst imaginable thing.
I can't disclose too much information.
All I can say is goodbye sane Lily...
I am about to start a on a spiral... Whether it be downward or upward that I am unaware of but I am finished. Kapeesh!
My brain is fried.
My heart is in shreds
I have given up on the human race
I seek nothing but solace
I am so consumed in anger my being won't allow me to breath the normal rhythm it usually does...


I dont even have the tears to cry
And don't even think I should bother
I'm going to remember this for life
And fault myself also
I despise the choice I made
And the psychological tact with which it was implanted into my brain

But all I can do is look on to the future
Which I know now consists of pure and sheer distaste at what the world thinks is acceptable
This is not acceptable
Immoral
Unjust
And absolute cruelty
To myself and the other involved

I just hope I am forgiven
Because this act is forbidden in my heart and in the eyes of many others
But who am I to judge

It's karma ...

Detox

Detox from the world as I know it..

it commenced about a week ago, if only it had lasted longer.
iLeft LDN town and went to visit my close friend in the United Arab Emirates.
To call that place beautiful is an understatement.
It is simply amazing.
The houses, the cars, the people... the scenery, the sights, the views.
I loved every second of my holiday.
Even when iHad a little tiff with my mate.

Honestly, I believe it is in my best interest to go on holiday at any opportunity.
iAlso believe that iWill at some point in time immigrate to another country.

London is lovely but so wack, everything here is so limited.

My holiday gave me time to think and plan and also dream big.

Live Life Love Life

I cant help but cringe at the thought of goin back to college tomorrow.
I want for just one week to get away from it all, college, work and my parents.
As much as I love my folks they now exactly what buttons to push, the turn up my blood pressure.

Either way, today when my hormones were not having their wicked way with my being I decided whatever the weather, I am just going to have to face every blow life gives me and smile despite my bruises and painful as they maybe.

Its all pretty simple, live life, love life.
No matter the circumstance.

Never Help Society

What is wrong with society today. With a broken down infrastructure caused by political instability of the dual parliament there will be nothing but grief and headache.
The migraine I left the hospital with today was absolutely immense.
About a month ago I visited my GP, on arrival I found they were turning away patients like it was a tennis court. I was advised by somebody else to visit the walk in centre in the same building run by a different surgery. I was seen there and I believed I had the cure in my hands. After using the recommended product for about a month the problem worsened! I took a trip to a+e n to my disappointment after a 3 hr wait was reffered back to my GP. Complete piss take I'm now goin to a private service that will give me what I am paying for.

Internal Tears

... I have never hurt so much inwardly as today ...

And for once not for a selfish reason, today was the burial of my late friend.
His life was cut short, by an ungrateful so and so.
But hey, there is a reason for everything, and his calling was now.
It was a beautiful event, being a funeral virgin I didnt know what to expect.
Tears fell from my eyes despite how hard I tried to force them backwards.
A mass of people old and young arrived and the church was packed.
The priest of the church was talking about him as though he knew my friend, but in actual fact all he said was opposite.
He wouldnt have liked the hymns, or the long sermon.
He would have LOVED the presence of all who turned up.

I was rather happy that the sun came up over his grave whilst they let the doves loose.
It was beautiful and let my heart be at ease.

I was angry for a long time after his death, but today I let all that anger diminish.
I dont want to talk about it anymore.

I just want to cherish the memories