You Deserve It

LOL, the title can be seen as a jeer/mockery or a pat on the back.

Many a time you work oh so hard for something that you do not in the end ever even receive or achieve.
There are so many people that toil and regardless of effort the goal is just out of bounds.

So how do you measure what entitles you to deserving that thing you covet.

In my opinion - YOU DON'T.

You deserve the world and beyond!
How dare you let the world and society characterise your life and put limits and bounds on what you can do.
There is nothing worse than being limited.

I hate giving up, so sometimes, I find myself in the same pathetic situation time and time again because I think that somehow, this time, if I just don't give up, something will give, there will be change.

Let me help you kick start your epiphany if this is how you think...
NO NO NO, stop lying to yourself!

I will not sit on the other end of your screen and assist you in deceiving yourself that what you put in is what you will get out.

I will however inform you that indeed you can achieve that goal of yours no matter how unrealistic it may seem.

I'll let you in on a secret...
I was one of those people with as Mr Luther put it 'A DREAM'.
It consisted of one thing and one thing only, to fall in love with someone who loved me equally and if not more.

There were occasions I thought I had achieved this dream and then, somehow it would turn into a nightmare.
Of course like any normal person I would flee.

Now, I am not going to jinx it.
But, the dream is now a reality... its still got elements of nightmare but.. blah.

The dream also went above and beyond my expectations and woah... I am not sure I want to tell the world my biggest secret yet.

Just know I am possibly the most content person in the world atm.

As a Christian lemme just say this - Gods time is the best time.

Back So Soon

This time of year again, so soon.
Only last year this time I was in bed (like I am now),
Resting my ikkle brain and being thankful for all I have.

I was really not in the right frame of mind last year for Christmas tbh,
But I braved it.

This year however I am a wealthy student -_- who received her grant
the day after her bday (1st dec) and kindly bought presents for immediate family, nieces, cousin and mum and dad.

After that I do not play part
I didn't even buy "him" a present
Ahh well, that is what boxing day sales are for

Anywho...

Today is a day every little child treasures and every career person relishes... today and the holiday days that follow on from today.

Its a day you get to look back at the past year, gather thoughts, ponder, plan and un plan.

I came to the conclusion that I made some very 'wise' mistakes.
They have helped shape my future and better my understanding of myself, the world and life.

I don't have regrets,
I am however from time to time, ridiculously bitter at things, the way they happened and how I happened to let them slide.

Its a new year in just under a week...
I am not saying I'm going to become a reformed woman, but my perception of things is slightly different.

Things happen for the greater good in many cases, and I'm so happy that things are panning out better than I could have expected.

Thank you for freeing me, for letting me experience a whole new side of life, for opening my eyes unto what opportunities lie before me that I had previously because of ignorance deemed IMPOSSIBLE.

I'm living a dream,

I'm living MY dream and I am loving it.

I never in a million years thought that 2011 would be the year, but guess what it was.