Tuesday 28 September 2010
I try
Honestly, I think I try real hard.
To please others, to do the right thing, to assist even where I am not needed.
Can somebody please tell me why it is that the wicked seem to prosper and the righteous suffer.
In what scripture does that make sense.
My mum always says your heaven starts on earth, so why then does nothing ever come to pass the way I envision it to, or even in a positive way with effects and results that benefit me in a way that I can appreciate.
FUCK, I'm real peeved.
Whats up with this shit.
I always used to say if life throws you shit, dodge it, BUT what if you cant dodge it in time?
Wipe it off you say?
But your going to stink of it.
I must smell like a month old nappy and be suffering from nappy rash right about now, because I'm sour, at the world, at people and ultimately at myself.
Because at the end of the day, the power to influence my life and push things in the right direction lies in my own hands. My choices, My risks...all Mine.
Selfish rant, yeah I know, but sometimes you really have to put yourself first. Not in front of a car btw.
To please others, to do the right thing, to assist even where I am not needed.
Can somebody please tell me why it is that the wicked seem to prosper and the righteous suffer.
In what scripture does that make sense.
My mum always says your heaven starts on earth, so why then does nothing ever come to pass the way I envision it to, or even in a positive way with effects and results that benefit me in a way that I can appreciate.
FUCK, I'm real peeved.
Whats up with this shit.
I always used to say if life throws you shit, dodge it, BUT what if you cant dodge it in time?
Wipe it off you say?
But your going to stink of it.
I must smell like a month old nappy and be suffering from nappy rash right about now, because I'm sour, at the world, at people and ultimately at myself.
Because at the end of the day, the power to influence my life and push things in the right direction lies in my own hands. My choices, My risks...all Mine.
Selfish rant, yeah I know, but sometimes you really have to put yourself first. Not in front of a car btw.
Tuesday 21 September 2010
Sick and Tired
On so many different levels, I am sick of what the world seems to be throwing me right now.
The same way in which I am avoiding unnecessary lip locking is how I'm ferociously dodging the bullets life shoots at me.
Its crazy because honestly my emotions have the ablility to send me into a rut, which is where if not found I will pass away in.
Recently, I found out my bad grades, lost a friend and have been threatened by both my parents and my teachers. Under pressure to perform, I have realised that I can no longer occupy two jobs and have decided to quit the other.
Im tired of having no social life, I'm tired of feeling as though I am inferior and Im tired of looking rough.
I want to look and feel on top of the world.
You know boost my ego and all that lark.
Ahh well, I'll get back to you on how far I get with this new plan of mine.
The same way in which I am avoiding unnecessary lip locking is how I'm ferociously dodging the bullets life shoots at me.
Its crazy because honestly my emotions have the ablility to send me into a rut, which is where if not found I will pass away in.
Recently, I found out my bad grades, lost a friend and have been threatened by both my parents and my teachers. Under pressure to perform, I have realised that I can no longer occupy two jobs and have decided to quit the other.
Im tired of having no social life, I'm tired of feeling as though I am inferior and Im tired of looking rough.
I want to look and feel on top of the world.
You know boost my ego and all that lark.
Ahh well, I'll get back to you on how far I get with this new plan of mine.
Sunday 12 September 2010
Kisses didn't mean anything
It's rather weird that of recent I reject a kiss when one is coming my way I duck and dive like a man in the army on the war front.
I'm really against these random smooches, a little like when I see drunk people eating each others faces off. Eurrghh!
On twitter a couple of guys I follow mentioned that they only kiss to secure the 'lash' in other words sex. That's ridiculous but I guess as some people get so carried away it must really work.
I'm not anti-men or anything, but I'm against being classified as easy. Girls are fast being seen as predictable, I want this view to be changed and for the moves of men to be clearer than a cloud free sky.
I see it happening, but not anytime soon. Women are far to dependent on the male species.
It's appalling
I'm really against these random smooches, a little like when I see drunk people eating each others faces off. Eurrghh!
On twitter a couple of guys I follow mentioned that they only kiss to secure the 'lash' in other words sex. That's ridiculous but I guess as some people get so carried away it must really work.
I'm not anti-men or anything, but I'm against being classified as easy. Girls are fast being seen as predictable, I want this view to be changed and for the moves of men to be clearer than a cloud free sky.
I see it happening, but not anytime soon. Women are far to dependent on the male species.
It's appalling
Friday 3 September 2010
Hibernate
Its sad, I try so hard to make others happy and never put myself in the forefront.
And I wonder why I start to feel so down.
Corr Blimey.
I could fling myself off a building right now.
I could also shoot the person that created A levels.
Autumns approaching, my shit summer is over and like an animal I would very much like to dig myself a hole and sleep right through winter, right past my birthday and into spring.
I cant wait for spring because it seems like a new begining, and a lot of the time you want to start over and do things differently.
But I guess you cant learn if you dont do, as they say ...
EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER
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